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Damn, it was freezing in here when I woke up at 0 dark-thirty this morning! I think I'll spend tomorrow caulking the windows and replacing the seals around the hatches because it's only going to get colder down here by the water. So far so good though.. No major problems and I actually got a new client out of being down here!

It still makes me laugh to think that on either side of me are million dollar condos and I'm only paying $250 a month in slip fees! I've got the same view as they do! I wish I would have done this sooner, I wouldn't be as broke as I am these days! A person could live comfortably down here on $1,000 a month salary, so once I get my shit together I'll be living like a king!

I went to an AA meeting last night and ran into some people I hadn't seen in a long time, we talked about how things seem to happen for a reason. I think this is one of those things.. Living here will allow me to only work 4 days a week and still get out of debt while actually SAVING money! Sure it's a little cold at times, sure there are a few drunks here who live on their boats and annoy the shit out of me, but hey... who am I to complain? I used to be one of them! While I lived in Florida, all I did was sit on the boat and get drunk every day!

In a couple hours I leave for Reading PA to install a home network and do a bit of wiring for a friend/client who is going to pay me in cash. I love free money that the IRS doesn't get to know about! The girl I'm sorta seeing right now is a little bummed because we were going to spend the night together, but I really need the money right now, especially when I don't have to report it! I hope she understands, but I doubt it... She's 7 years younger than I am.. I KNOW.. BAD MIKE!! I suppose I shouldn't be seeing her at all, but it was going on 10 months since I had any kind of relationship and.. well.. you know.. people get lonely.. I'll probably live to regret this, but the sex is fantastic!!

Well, enough about Mike's sex life.. as if you all really want to hear about it..

I'm not sure how I feel about turning 27 this sunday.. Quite truthfuly I'm only bummed about it because I see where many of the people I grew up with are at my age and I think I don't have much to show for the last 7 years.. Sure, I've done a lot in the last 7 years, but I don't have much to show for it.. I guess I'm at that point in my life where I want to really get my act together so that I can take care of all my responsibilities and still go out every night and have a good time. I've made a real mess of things in the last 10 months so I've got a lot of work to do, but compared to where I was almost 4 years ago.. this is just a bump in the road.

I'm sitting here on the boat listening to Nirvana and remembering what I can remember.. of my teenage years, thinking about how I really thought life was hard back then.. I was fucking clueless!! I was such a mess when I was 14-18 it's amazing I even lived through it, but god damn I had it so easy back then! Before I go off and ramble about all that, I'm just gonna stop.. I have no great words of wisdom, in fact my best advice kept me drunk and miserable for the better part of 6 years.. Come to think of it, it hasn't helped me much since I got sober either.. All I know is that everything, good or bad.. will pass. The older I get, it it seems the less I know... Perhaps that's a good thing.. I've always been told that I should always remain teachable..