quilo

happy fuckin holloween!!!!!!!!!!!!! hope u all had fun. i just went to the bar and hung out with my old friend. wish i would have gotten more homework done! im kinda behind, but not that bad. went and say my best friends band play on friday night at a high school party, man was that wierd! brought me back. also made me feel old. fuck it, i still have my memories, and when i lose them im pretty sure i wont know anyways. my ex used to be terrified of becoming crazy, but i really dont think you know that you are crazy.anyways, im really trying to let go with my gilfriend and just trust her. it so very hard but it feels good to not think about her all the time and drive myself crazy. i just wonder how long i can keep it up. you ever have it when youve just hit that point where you dont trust anyone (except a few that have been there for you) anymore and it feels impossable to restore? you just cant figure out how to go back to your normal self?