Yes, I am a God-fearing lady who likes who take her clothes off for sport. I'm sure it's not right but this is who I am.
Trouble at work: gosh, well, thing aren't good but I'm going to stick it out and make the best of it. I don't enjoy my job, but it's a job and right now I don't have anything else. So I'm going to stay with it, stay so I can prove a point to myself. I really liked my team leader, but he's not available so I'm giving up on it. But I don't think that means that I have to give up on the job, even though I want to. It's time I grow up and stop running from one thing to another. I wish it were easier but it isn't.
I keep wishing that someone would save me but reality doesn't work that way. Life is very painful. Sometimes I get a martyr complex and think that I have to sacrifice myself in order to find balance. I'm prone to extremes. I think that I gotta just stop and act like a normal person. Why is this so difficult?
It's difficult because I have never known balance and never cared for myself enough to find it. From this point on, i want to be normal, and I want to love myself.
Trouble at work: gosh, well, thing aren't good but I'm going to stick it out and make the best of it. I don't enjoy my job, but it's a job and right now I don't have anything else. So I'm going to stay with it, stay so I can prove a point to myself. I really liked my team leader, but he's not available so I'm giving up on it. But I don't think that means that I have to give up on the job, even though I want to. It's time I grow up and stop running from one thing to another. I wish it were easier but it isn't.
I keep wishing that someone would save me but reality doesn't work that way. Life is very painful. Sometimes I get a martyr complex and think that I have to sacrifice myself in order to find balance. I'm prone to extremes. I think that I gotta just stop and act like a normal person. Why is this so difficult?
It's difficult because I have never known balance and never cared for myself enough to find it. From this point on, i want to be normal, and I want to love myself.
There comes a point in most people lives where they reach a real epiphany. An "a-ha" experience that they either take to heart or ignore in favor of continuing to live in ...for lack of a better word...ignorance. It sounds like you are close to that epiphany. You call it your job because that is what it is...a job, not a career. I have a job, too, but for the life of me can't decide on a career. I like my job, but it can be very VERY trying at times. The trick is to push on through until another opportunity either presents itself or you force one to present itself.
Romance at work is never good, unless you are self employed and your lover is your partner and even THAT takes work (my folks are attorneys and are the only 2 partners in their firm...for 25 years...don't know why both of them are still alive
There are too many people just doing time on this planet. That's not to say you HAVE to be an activist or anything...just appreciate where you are and what lies ahead. You aren't dead yet and who knows, maybe someone will save you, but by then you shouldn't need saving
WOW..sorry about all of that. I guess I felt chatty. Chin up gorgeous!!