Monday Sep 25, 2006

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I LIVE IN BATH shocked

Uni = life of organisation, beautiful scenery, living with girly girls and getting to choose what I really want to spend my money on. I can tell this will change with time. I am in no way a girly girl. My flatmates have learnt that I like my music loud and nasty and my body naked.

Will take photos soon. This is because I have a digital camera, newly aquired BRIGHT FUCKIN' PURPLE hair and I promise a girl I met on the bus that I'd photograph Autumn with her. Sounds perfect.

My first night here was spent crying. The entirity of it. In tears. I feel so tiny here. But I'm feeling a lot more positive today. I'm excited for my future.

AND HOW CAN I EVER FEEL BLUE WHEN QUINNE HAS A NEW SET?!?!?!?!?

Thankyou, from the bottom of my heart, Quinne. I nearly fell off my chair because of it. I'm going to tell you I fell completely off my chair actually, sounds better. So, Quinne, I fell off my chair in excitement and joy. ALL PRAISE!

I've had a lot of time to contemplate writing lyrics again. I wrote a few lines in my head today but Ammeretto has happened since then, so they've all been lost.

Have this old poem instead:

Killed you

I hurt myself because it's easier than hurting you.
I crush all my dreams now.
I do nott feel the pain you gave me.
I've won because ive killed you inside me.

I can't remember our love,
It died in me long ago.
I dont believe you ever loved me at all -
You're too ignorant to really know.

In my head I've formed a new you,
The you I didn't know existed.
This is the you you've left in me.
You're too blind to see.

-x-
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quartie:
I hate not being in contreol of my social status, so I am becoming that freak who won't make friends. I don't mind being that. I hate the convention of "Hello..... what are you taking? Be my friend" shit.
jagg:
That's fair enough, but at the same time 'you gotta do what you gotta do' wink I've just been travelling in Canada for a month, and pretty much the only conversation starter you will ever hear is "So where are you from?" - but it works. Gets people talking, and that's the only way you're going to make friends. Or just find someone else who looks like they're your kind of person and strike up a completely different conversation. They might appreciate the change!

His name was Oscar. Was about 14 years old, so I've grown up with him frown Poor little guy was like a proper member of the family and everything.

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