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I won't say I'm sorry that I've been so unhappy lately. I'm trying to keep it to myself as much as I can though.

Last night I had a dream that some friends and I were walking home after dinner, and we had to walk past his apartment. I told Heather that I was afraid we would bump into him somewhere, and Cassie pointed up at his balcony. That's where I saw him cuddling, naked, under a blanket on his balcony with his new girlfriend. This is the first time I've seen her in dreams (or anywhere for that matter) and she looked different than I thought she would. Strawberry-blonde hair and youthful, beautiful face. I yelled things at him. Curse words, I think I told him something like "Fuck you, asshole", then he came downstairs, fully dressed, and hugged me.

I guess it should be noted that cuddling wit h girlfriend Kevin is not the same person as hugged me Kevin, just like in real life. Cuddling with girlfriend Kevin can kiss my ass and burn in hell. Hugged me Kevin I miss terribly and spend every moment of the day making a conscious effort to not call him.