pyrdaemon

Alright for all of my SUPER AMAZING 12 FOLLOWERS!!!!! <3 Love ya'll Merry Christmas!!!!! = D I just a very interesting evening! I'm a big introvert, something I've been oddly reacquainting myself with over the last week. I've felt like I'm frickin Dexter putting on a freakin face just so folks think I'm normal and wondering if there is such a thing as a decent sociopath that doesn't kill people but just thinks about it on a somewhat ALL THE TIME basis. Ok that's somewhat over dramatic but eh, close enough. I feel very out of place with main stream society, always have, but that's almost a given since most of them are extroverts. (Ya'll have your homework! = P). Anyhow I went out tonight to be sociable and caught up with my bro's in the fire department out getting the drink on. It was a better night than most, discovered a new drink called the bruce banner. This fantastic mostly soju (Korean vodka essentially) and green stuff concoction that I feel happily buzzing in my face fivish hours later...or maybe that's just the jack n coke! Either way I was about to head home for the night about 4 hours ago when I saw a dude, by himself, clearly intoxicated and stumbling in the smoke pit. I'm no saint or better than though fucking anything. I take most my guys to be adult enough to handle their own fuckin shit. But I've caught some flack and somethin just told me check on this dude. So I did. After 5 mins I know he's security forces, a cop, and a muslim. I'm a devout...ish Christian (ask me about it sometimes [I'm drunk and speaking exactly as shit comes to me, I'm no fucking saint]) But ultimately my goal is to make sure he makes it home ok. He's part of my Air Force family, which matters to me, regardless of his beliefs or if he's gunna be part of it two weeks from now (which unfortunately he will not). We had a really good/broken up conversation about a lot of shit. One thing that never made sense to me, religion wise, is that if God is all knowing why the fuck He would make douche bags like hitler that just fuck everyone. Broheim essentially said the same thing in regards to Allah and informed me of a lot of shit I didn't honestly know. Such as Jesus being a prophet in muslim terms just not the 'all knowing' final/last prophet that Muhammad (sp?) was and therefore anyone not following him (Muhammad) is an infidel. When it comes to my faith there's a GREAT deal of shit I don't understand. I try to focus on what I do as best as I can. Which is that Jesus came to teach us about love, pure and holy straight up. Two things, love your neighbor as yourself and love the Lord your God with all your heart and all your soul. I can see, and understand, a lot of folks having issues with the second one. Debate/religion aside, treat people the way you want to be treated. There's plenty I can't explain in life etc. What I do know is what you feel in your heart comes out when you're XXX sheets beyond counting (or counting for the lightweights ; ) ) [uber parenthesis fail, sorry ><] {my English teacher totally just rolled over in his grave to be in say 30ish yrs, LOL >=D}. I know cause when I get really drunk I talk about God to people, something that really somewhat baffles me. Case in point, the first time I was in New Orleans on the strip in Ricks Cabaret I was talking to the black (I'm not racist but for reference sake) bathroom attendant. A former Navy guy himself, about how much God loves him...can't really wrap my mind around that one. That or the fact that the most beauteous stripper in the world I've yet to witness (which is a significant few!) red head, gorgeous, one of the most femine voices I've ever heard with a bad ass tattoo (that was unfortunately covered, I felt it when I got a lap dance...best one ever! = ) ). Only girl I've asked to accompany me to my hotel if she desired. So aaaaaalllll on the table here = P. Back to the guy who can't walk straight, I tell him to puke. I'm a classy drunk I know what I can handle and what/when I can't and I rectify the situation when I can't. Hate to, total alchohol abuse/waste, but some of us have shit to do tomorrow. So he adjusts himself in some bushes, not my first choice but hey (he was plowed!). We talked more and it basicly got late as shit. I found his ass and made sure he had my facebook before I left so I can find him again. Left him with more cops, they don't all eat their own all the time...at least off duty. That I had warm fuzzies about him being good with to get not pork pizza but chicken, he was uncorruptable unlike the Jew I met in Germany! >= D. So I had to say something about it, here cause it's a place I feel comfortable speaking my thoughts without reprisal. The biggest thing I love about SG, ya'll are great ; ). I'm now changing/shaving and going in to work for probably 2 hrs of sleep before I go on duty and put a cranked out radio by me ear so nothing bad will happen to anyone on base. It's all about holding enough in reserve to handle what comes at you, be it fire, zombies, a birth (please God no, I don't really get enough as it is!) or some poor sob that couldn't take anymore (very much fuckin hope not...never the answer = \ ). There's my two cents for the ass crack of dawn. <3 ~Dae out!!!! ; )