pykus

I don't know what to say. I'm not exactly speechless I just have so much to
say and it all wants to come out at once. It also wants to be expressed
beautifully and I'm trying to force it and that doesn't work. I keep forcing
it because I want it out. I want to not feel so full inside and because
maybe if I put it in words I won't have to keep thinking about it all the
time. I said yesterday that I was afraid of getting my heart broken, but
that's not it. What I'm really scared of is that I'm going to screw things
up by saying too much, or by not saying enough, or by waiting too long, or
by not waiting long enough... I need to chill out... /me takes a chill pill.