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Yeah! I LMAO over that! Funny!

I hope you got lucky, and found something there you enjoyed.

I'm happy you had a great night. I hope you keep doing good.

Progressive meals are the best!! My friends and I do a progressive Thanksgiving dinner a week before or so every year and just jump from restaurant to restaurant sharing a few dishes and laughing over drinks and the such. It's good times.

Getting lost and exploring your town is amazing and still one of my favorite things to do. I can't wait to fall in love with a new town. Yes, I'm talking Pittsburgh.

WOW! That is totally cool that you're the SUN! The whole solar system revolves around YOU! Are you cool or what? You are the center of the universe!!!! That is the bess knees! How lame was that sentence? Ha! Ha! Anyway, I think it's cool that you picked the sun. You totally deserve to be the sun since you are so inspirational to everyone. I don't think you know just how inspirational you are to at least me. I think you are to probaly other people too. What a cool idea this is for the people at the dialysis center. I wished they would do something like this at my bro's center. They don't ever do anything to get them involved in anything. They just go there and get drained day by day bey day and never get recognized. How drab! I'm going to mention this to him and see what he thinks about it. It might brighten up his day too.

You're the greatest Orion!

I like the hair!!!!

You look nice!

Panic attacks really do suck! I've had them terribly for some time and xanax was always the answer. Now that I don't have that...I don't really have them anymore. Thank God. I would really feel like I was dying. I would tell everyboyd take me to Baylor Hospital if I go unconsious. My mom is on prednisone and has real bad ones. She also has emphysema so when she can't breathe she REALLY can't breathe. The only person who can calm her down is her best friend who looks her straight in the eye and just tells her she CAN breathe. Sandi is the ONLY one who can calm her down. She really thinks she's dying. She goes through the whole bit about losing all bodily functions and everything. She thinks if she pees on herself that she really is dying so that makes it worse and so on and so on. It's BAD! The worse ones last 45mins to an hour. Now that's a long time to have a panic attack. I never thought that prednisone could be the cause of the panic attacks though. She's had them even before she was on prednisone though. She's had them since she had emphysema.

Anyway...That's my experience with them. They SUCK! I'm sorry you are experiencing them. Hang in there!

I don't like to think of them as "hidden identities" so much as I like to think of myself as interesting multi-dimensional person. Not every dimension of me shows at any one given moment, but just cause I can't show it all at once, doesn't mean I'm not ALL those things all the time.

Example: I am a very sexual person... though to what extent most people never find out, because I can only be fully sexually open within a relationship. It takes time for me to build trust before I can allow my sexuality to show fully to someone.

Does that mean that when I'm single and not fucking that I'm not sexual? No, not at all. That part of me is still with me, it's just not in a position to show.

I know what you mean though. Cause I see it in myself as well as others. I think that's what makes people so interesting is that no matter how long you know someone that you can always count on them to surprise you and show you something new. Though I'm also someone who loves to help push people to a new level. Challenge them to show a truer form of them self.

One of my favorite quotes reflects this:

"Man's main task in life is to give birth to himself, to become what he potentially is. The most important product of his effort is his own personality." - Erich Fromm

ok.... end rant/long winded talk

OMG! You have the same birthday as my brother! How funny is that! I just realized that. May tenth! He's only gonna be 26 though. Ya'll have another thing in common. Wow!

That is good news

How have you been? I worry about you and your health.

How are you?

I am so very glad that your surgery went well and that you are doing good :]

Take care and keep in touch, dear.

I'm happy it's at least a modicum of "better."

I'm bummed to hear that your surgeon isn't the fucking stellar rockstar, fix anything surgeon you deserve.

I'm envious and proud of your ability to be your own advocate and stand up for exactly what you feel is right in the realm of your own health care (and come to think of it- other areas of your life too )

I've only had surgery twice in my life and both times I felt like "a ripped up meat puppet" and they were nothing like what you've been through. I honestly can't imagine. I hope the meds help and that coming off them isn't hellish. I get wrecked if I have to come off a week long course of entry level vicodin. I can drink like a fish but opiates twist me up in a really evil way.

I'll be thinking about you.

good luck, man.

After all these years, i'd like nothing more than to see a success story. i'll be thinking about you tomorrow afternoon.

Surgery!?

Arm problem!?

WHATTTTTT!!!?!?!?!?


Awwwww, I hope everything goes smoothly for you, dear.

Take care, get plenty of rest and feel better soon.

I will be thinking about you!

xx