omg... i told hunter tonight, just a few minutes ago, while i was stoned... i carelessly said it. "i'm poly." he started crying and all this stuff and asking me lots of questions about doubting how much i love him.
it's just that, i want 1 romantic relationship --with him. and i also want sexual relationships with a lot of people. is that unusual? probably not cuz people cheat on each other all the time. but establishing the fact that you're like that seems legitimate to me because you're being honest with the person about what's going to be the reality of the relationship, right?
i feel guilty and bad and mentally ill and sexually sick. i can't help it, i was born this way and it's the only way that truly makes me happy. so ugh... what am i to do? i donno... feeling bad for me being the way i am isn't gonna get me anywhere even though i feel all emotional right now.
hunty just went to bed and it's four in the morning. i should go to bed, too, and see what unfolds tomorrow.
(((kwan yin have compassion on me and send me good luck!!!)))
unsure,
--natalie
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Lets cover all the bases.
You ARE honest. And it's not like you went out cheating on him.
You are NOT "sexually sick" or "mentally ill" because of how you feel. That's the argument of Christians getting to you.
You two just need to sit and have a talk. Simple as that.
-TM