hello sg,
so, how's my world? goin' pretty good. everything's relaxed for once. hunter and i had a fight earlier today... i donno, whatever.
my piercing got infected so i put hydrogen peroxide on it. i know they say to never do that, but i've done it before with really bad infections and it noticeably helps (my body at least, i wouldn't recommend stuff the piercers don't recommend to other people), but yeah, now it seem to be feeling better and some of the redness has gone away.
as for casey, i'm totally fascinated by this girl. i like her a lot. not like she'd want to commit to me or anything though... i mean, she is bi and all, but that doesn't mean she'd want a relationship with me. maybe i should just tell her... i donno. it's all girls....not just her tho, i seem be liking a lot of girls right now. sometimes i just crave it almost. i'm probably a repressed homosexual with a complex... (i mean, we know the second one's right already, haha?) but yeah, ugh, i want to break up, i want to be single, i want to be free. but i can't right now, for some reason or another. that's my complex... i'm clingy and scared and anxious and tense. oh well. one day i'll have an end to this ambivalence about what i want in life to begin with.
well, i guess that's about it... did some laundry today and i'm sure it's dry by now so i gotta go get that.
xoxo,
--natalie
so, how's my world? goin' pretty good. everything's relaxed for once. hunter and i had a fight earlier today... i donno, whatever.
my piercing got infected so i put hydrogen peroxide on it. i know they say to never do that, but i've done it before with really bad infections and it noticeably helps (my body at least, i wouldn't recommend stuff the piercers don't recommend to other people), but yeah, now it seem to be feeling better and some of the redness has gone away.
as for casey, i'm totally fascinated by this girl. i like her a lot. not like she'd want to commit to me or anything though... i mean, she is bi and all, but that doesn't mean she'd want a relationship with me. maybe i should just tell her... i donno. it's all girls....not just her tho, i seem be liking a lot of girls right now. sometimes i just crave it almost. i'm probably a repressed homosexual with a complex... (i mean, we know the second one's right already, haha?) but yeah, ugh, i want to break up, i want to be single, i want to be free. but i can't right now, for some reason or another. that's my complex... i'm clingy and scared and anxious and tense. oh well. one day i'll have an end to this ambivalence about what i want in life to begin with.
well, i guess that's about it... did some laundry today and i'm sure it's dry by now so i gotta go get that.
xoxo,
--natalie
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Boo infections and complexes!
-TM
thanx for your comment,
its always nice to hear,
and for your problem with girls, i know what it is, even if i love men, im deeply attracted by girls, but i think its because i love beauty and that women can be deeply beautifuls. but u know i don't think its a "sexual" stuff, (even if it is lol) we are kinda double, i mean, atrracted by men, and attracted by girls, coz Humans are complicated so we are made of several sensations and feelings and opinions, and taste etc
well its hard to explain in english but i'm sure you'll understand
see u