Wednesday Apr 20, 2005

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hi world,

today seems kinda lame. it's april 20th... 420. wow, w00t... it's not really that cool. not like i don't smoke pot EVERY SINGLE FRICKIN DAY! ::rolls eyes:: i should quit. not cuz i don't like pot anymore, but sometimes i just can't stand the subculture of people that come along with it and some of that dorkiness. maybe i should become a hermit... nah, i like to talk too much.

so yeah, anyway, today's not too interesting. i'm not sure where hunter and i's relationship is going... the sex seems to have gotten deliciously better in the last few weeks, but i'm still not happy. and sometimes i fantasize about other men/women. i donno if that means i should break it off or what. i do love him a lot, we've been together for a year and a half... but if i'm not happy... i mean, i donno. there are just things that are making me unhappy right now. and i kinda want to be single for once... i was one of those girls that always had a boyfriend, or a new one.

so, hmph. guess i'll be going to some smoke parties tonight. iz all good with me i suppose... hope i'll have fun.

later "world"

--natalie
thefreak:
All I can say is look @what you and hunter have had for the past year and half, whether it all was good or bad, whether you'd miss him when he was gone, what have you. I'm no relationship expert in the least, I've failed spectacularly more times than I care to recollect, so I'm probably not the one that should be telling you this. whatever

But, I care, so, I wish the best for you. smile

-TM
avantgarde:
If I had a quarter for every time I fantasized about another person I would own this site right now. Fantasies are just that, fantasy. Unless you put them into action, like go sleep with someone else or scream out someone else's name in the heat of passion I wouldn't worry about it. You should stay true to your real feelings, they will lead you to hapiness much more often than just sex. Well, at least in the long term they will grin.

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