purple_wings

i'm going thru something strange right now... it's about ashley... i really, really like her. but i don't like or love hunter any less. i'm poly. i am. i know i am. that's not the problem, really.

hunter and ashley and i had a 3sum a while ago. hunter would probably like to keep doing it and such, and that'd be cool. i told him i'm afraid i'd start really liking ashley, maybe even falling in love. but then on shrooms yesterday, i realized that that's already happened... from having sex with her. and i don't like/love hunter any differently. so, i'm not so afraid anymore.

but, i think i'd want ashley more to myself. it's like, i'm bi and poly. i feel like i want a relationship with a man and a woman. i don't think hunter would like any of that at all though, i mean, at all. even if we had sex with him sometimes too.

plus, there's ashley... what would she want? i donno. i'd have to talk to her. she says she's "dating" right now. i wonder if she'd date me... and if hunter would allow it. i doubt it, but it can be a fantasy i guess.

oh well,

that's all 4 now!

Purple_Wings