Musings Of A Stripper
Who am I? Who am I now? I often wonder... I come from a rich, white, high class home. A home and a societal niche with standards, expectations and always the worry of bringing shame on oneself or peers also of high status. I was born on this level because of the amount of money my father makes, because I have an IQ of 153 and am expected to make it to a Ph.D, and because of the town I grew up in --rich, white suberbs.
I do seek a Ph.D, and I am working on it. That makes me one of the elite, one of the educated in society who makes more, has more, is supposedly happier. Yet I've taken on something else... Stripping.
"Oh what have I done?!" I wonder at times, yet inside I know the truth is that I love my new job, despite being considered a "slut," "whitetrash," "a girl to be avoided," "unstable," or "it's too bad how that girl doesn't realize how much potential she has!"
Why do they not know that I can be in more worlds than one. I can be in my head, in my poetry, in my songs, in my education, in studies, in my work, in my stripping, in my sex, in my body, in my life. I can be more than what I am expected to be, yet, stripping may forever give me a name I do not wish to utter.
So why then? Why keep doing it and live a secret life? It will be hard to live a secret life, indeed. But I truly love my work and I see nothing wrong with the selling of one's image at one's own disposal for one's own pleasure. It is simply my kink and I can no longer resist doing what I enjoy, what I feel is right simply to impress my peers, simply to live up to standards, simply to not "embarass" those who know me.
I know me. I am an intelligent person. I am a person of high standing and great intellect. I am a woman. I am bisexual. I AM sexual. I am a digital stripper. I am an archaeologist. I am a college student. I am rich because of my parents. I get off easy because I am white. I get off easy because I am female. Sometimes people judge me more because I'm female. I'm Natalie. I don't have a niche... I don't need one.
I am Natalie.
Who am I? Who am I now? I often wonder... I come from a rich, white, high class home. A home and a societal niche with standards, expectations and always the worry of bringing shame on oneself or peers also of high status. I was born on this level because of the amount of money my father makes, because I have an IQ of 153 and am expected to make it to a Ph.D, and because of the town I grew up in --rich, white suberbs.
I do seek a Ph.D, and I am working on it. That makes me one of the elite, one of the educated in society who makes more, has more, is supposedly happier. Yet I've taken on something else... Stripping.
"Oh what have I done?!" I wonder at times, yet inside I know the truth is that I love my new job, despite being considered a "slut," "whitetrash," "a girl to be avoided," "unstable," or "it's too bad how that girl doesn't realize how much potential she has!"
Why do they not know that I can be in more worlds than one. I can be in my head, in my poetry, in my songs, in my education, in studies, in my work, in my stripping, in my sex, in my body, in my life. I can be more than what I am expected to be, yet, stripping may forever give me a name I do not wish to utter.
So why then? Why keep doing it and live a secret life? It will be hard to live a secret life, indeed. But I truly love my work and I see nothing wrong with the selling of one's image at one's own disposal for one's own pleasure. It is simply my kink and I can no longer resist doing what I enjoy, what I feel is right simply to impress my peers, simply to live up to standards, simply to not "embarass" those who know me.
I know me. I am an intelligent person. I am a person of high standing and great intellect. I am a woman. I am bisexual. I AM sexual. I am a digital stripper. I am an archaeologist. I am a college student. I am rich because of my parents. I get off easy because I am white. I get off easy because I am female. Sometimes people judge me more because I'm female. I'm Natalie. I don't have a niche... I don't need one.
I am Natalie.