Maybe I should update?
Cats have always been very very important to me, and I was seen as very strange in school because all the way up to grade 6 I was still acting like a cat, biting, meowing and crawling under desks. Needless to say I was never a popular one. I feel ashamed now though to act like a cat because I've learned how (kind of) popular it is for different alternative girls to wear cat ears and stuff. When I wear cat stuff, I actually feel inside like I'm just copying other people, because I worry other people think that, even though I obviously know it isn't true, that it's just who I am. It makes me uncomfortable, so I don't feel like I can express that big part of me now. If I didn't have this social anxiety I probably wouldn't care that cat ears are mildly popular, I would wear them anyway. But I have too much anxiety.
I bought a small digital camera, just so I can take pictures of stray cats. I began to see a lot of strays/ferals everywhere, after my very old kitty passed away exactly 2 years ago today. I thought it was very strange, because I'd only seen maybe 2 stray cats outside (not including ones my mom rescued) as a child, and only one single black kitten about 4 years ago. It gave me the impression that there really aren't many strays/ferals out there in this city. As soon as my kitty passed away, I saw one after the other, and within only two years now, from after my kitty died until now, I've seen around 20! I think that's pretty odd.
I've begun to carry a tin of cat food with me any time I leave the house, along with my cat camera.
I hope this doesn't make me sound too insane...
Cats have always been very very important to me, and I was seen as very strange in school because all the way up to grade 6 I was still acting like a cat, biting, meowing and crawling under desks. Needless to say I was never a popular one. I feel ashamed now though to act like a cat because I've learned how (kind of) popular it is for different alternative girls to wear cat ears and stuff. When I wear cat stuff, I actually feel inside like I'm just copying other people, because I worry other people think that, even though I obviously know it isn't true, that it's just who I am. It makes me uncomfortable, so I don't feel like I can express that big part of me now. If I didn't have this social anxiety I probably wouldn't care that cat ears are mildly popular, I would wear them anyway. But I have too much anxiety.
I bought a small digital camera, just so I can take pictures of stray cats. I began to see a lot of strays/ferals everywhere, after my very old kitty passed away exactly 2 years ago today. I thought it was very strange, because I'd only seen maybe 2 stray cats outside (not including ones my mom rescued) as a child, and only one single black kitten about 4 years ago. It gave me the impression that there really aren't many strays/ferals out there in this city. As soon as my kitty passed away, I saw one after the other, and within only two years now, from after my kitty died until now, I've seen around 20! I think that's pretty odd.
I've begun to carry a tin of cat food with me any time I leave the house, along with my cat camera.
I hope this doesn't make me sound too insane...
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bkzeevil02:
Heh, re-up= reenlist in the military...... And np for the comment, only here to help! 
xxroninxx:
Heh, it's unusual but I wouldn't say "insane"...especially since I have this odd connection with dogs. I swear I had to have been one in my past life if such a thing exists. 