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So I'm really hoping I've finally started to get my life back in gear (touch wood)

I am eating again just about as of today, actually having 1 normal sized meal and and another half sized, also having ate a few bits yesterday. I went for a meal with my Grandmother, my cousin, his boyfriend and female best friend (who I really got along with but unfortunately she has a boyfriend), but my behaviour over the last week has been very reclusive, just haven't been able to stand company, so despite them being great company, after an hour I just wanted to leave. May go back to work tomorrow but ideally I want another couple of days, just to get myself fully sorted as I still have bouts of massive depression.

Also an old friend from school who I had spoken to a few times in the last year invited me to see Skyfall tomorrow with all of his mates, which I'm quite excited about. My ex got me into a load of anime, something which I never liked before her other than Dragonball Z of course and he along with them are all into as well so I'm hoping to make some new friend to enable to indulge this like again as obviously since breaking up and finding out I had been lied too, betrayed and cheated on, I can't watch any of it anymore and I really want to! (Also anime chicks are fun and interesting )

I also started my punk denim vest project tonight, took me 3 hours to sew one patch!

Hopefully I can get a bit more done tomorrow.

I had been forgetting to do a video in the last few blogs, so here's a song that's really been helpful to me. I just love the way Tim and Lars look like they are really are singing from experience and are doing because they want to help you overcome it.

I've been knock out, beat down, black and blue
She's not the one coming back for you
She's not the one coming back for you

Oh, I've also decided I'm getting the lyrics "In the shadows of darkness I stand in the light" tattooed on me to remind me to always stay strong in future.