"smile!"
okay first things first.. concert last night.. AMAZING.. i am fairly sure that it was only so because i came into it with so little expectations.. but "my chemical romance" and "the used" both controlled the crowd so well that you pretty much had no choice but get involved.. not to mention they both put on good shows...
but i also ran into an old friend in the mall.. and she told me something that was.. well i feel kind of good about it yet in the same sense i feel so bad. she told me that my ex.. (background info, we dated for a year... she broke up with me pretty much cut all ties.. the day before graduation.. nice eh!, not saying i was an angel.. but even still) but she told me that she has become a loner.. and she kind of kicked her out of her house because of her new loser boyfriend who spends most of his time in jail... now i am happy cause i so much better now.. like as a person.. i went through a hard time after we broke up... mostly cause i always felt that i was nothing. and then i learn that.. i have so much more, i am happy. but i feel bad cause even her like best friend ( the girl i met in the mall) has left her and she is pretty much left with nothing.. well i am figuring that grandma died and left the million dollar condo to her so money wise she was never doing bad.. but just as a person she is a loner and noone deserves that... and i feel that i have established myself as something more..
i don't know why i have conflicting feelings about it though. maybe i will just never really be able not to care, she showed me so much and changed me into a better person.. before she belittled me, and threw me aside. maybe it kinda hurts cause i wanted her to do better.. and i know that i will never be able to help her
...Sean...
okay first things first.. concert last night.. AMAZING.. i am fairly sure that it was only so because i came into it with so little expectations.. but "my chemical romance" and "the used" both controlled the crowd so well that you pretty much had no choice but get involved.. not to mention they both put on good shows...
but i also ran into an old friend in the mall.. and she told me something that was.. well i feel kind of good about it yet in the same sense i feel so bad. she told me that my ex.. (background info, we dated for a year... she broke up with me pretty much cut all ties.. the day before graduation.. nice eh!, not saying i was an angel.. but even still) but she told me that she has become a loner.. and she kind of kicked her out of her house because of her new loser boyfriend who spends most of his time in jail... now i am happy cause i so much better now.. like as a person.. i went through a hard time after we broke up... mostly cause i always felt that i was nothing. and then i learn that.. i have so much more, i am happy. but i feel bad cause even her like best friend ( the girl i met in the mall) has left her and she is pretty much left with nothing.. well i am figuring that grandma died and left the million dollar condo to her so money wise she was never doing bad.. but just as a person she is a loner and noone deserves that... and i feel that i have established myself as something more..
i don't know why i have conflicting feelings about it though. maybe i will just never really be able not to care, she showed me so much and changed me into a better person.. before she belittled me, and threw me aside. maybe it kinda hurts cause i wanted her to do better.. and i know that i will never be able to help her
...Sean...