punkoff

Its been exactly 32 days since i had my last drink. I think ive maybe found a little of what i was looking for the whole time i was drunk. A piece of mind. Things become much more clearer and as apparent things are my nerves can tolerate without poison. Despite the fact that there is a brutal war going on which, if i watch to much news, stresses me the fuck out, i wont reach for the bottle know that it makes it worse. Times are bad and im ok with that. My only concern is where to go from here and what to think. My opinions still remain the same. Their as fucked as ever but coming in a little more clear today. Is it time to change old habits? do i befriend? do i break an open heart? or am i overthinking? trying not to focus to hard can be torture.