punkinfanta

i'm frustrated.
mainly because i think i'm getting sick. and my body is super sore.
when i'm sick i get needy and moan and pout a lot. oh and i get clumsy too. i kind of miss the days of being sick and having someone take care of you. tuck you in and make you soup and bring you 7up and rub your head...
yeah my mom use to rub my head when i was little.
...the power of touch.
being self sufficient sucks in that way. i only get sick once a year, usually in november, but i get hit HARD. my first time being sick after moving away i had no insurance. i stayed in my place curled up in a little ball practically dying and there was no one to visit..i doubt anyone even knew i was sick or alive
*sigh*

for as much patience i expel on things like hrmm...men...i have zero everywhere else. i'm restless and anxious and antsy.


i want too much.

i want silly to return my calls consistently and i want to be his best friend and hang out with him
i want the other one to want me, or i don't want to care as much
i want to be able to hang out with people that are awesome but live far
i want friends and hugs and cuddles

and argh

i'm going to go be a whiny sobby pouty sick girl in my room alone

no one will respond to this. maybe if i post some nudes or something someone will




arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh