punkie

Hi!!

Hey, good luck on the move

As LK15 suggests, take a break from Luke and think things through. Think about where you want to live and how you'd support yourself. Think about whether or not you're truly in love with your BF or if you guys are co-dependent. Think about how you would feel if your BF got with another girl.

Once you've come to some conclusions, you could consider talking to your BF about having an open relationship. If the idea of him sleeping with other people is ok with you, there's a chance you could have your cake and eat it too.

The best thing you can do either way is be honest with yourself about what you want. Sometimes it isn't clear right away which is why you should take some time apart from Luke.

Once you have a better idea about what you want, be super honest and up front about what your thinking with your BF but remember to think about his feelings. I would ask him if he ever thinks about other girls (of course he does if he's human - everyone does) and if he'd ever consider having an open relationship where you could both see other people.

If he freaks out then maybe it's time to go your separate ways since you've already been thinking about being single. Maybe you should even just get separate places and take a break so you can figure out what you want?

The thing you don't want to do is cheat on him. That's going to poison the relationship whether he finds out or not. Trust me. It's hard at first but you owe it to yourself and eachother to be honest and get out if you're not feeling it anymore.

You're young so now is a great time to take some risks and be on your own if that's what you're feeling. Just remember, honesty will save you both time and heartache. Plus you'll sleep better. It's really the only way to go.

Good luck, beautiful - it'll work out fine. Don't be afraid.

Just be careful sweety

hey dude just get drunk with evil leslie. that always makes me and lesli feel better

Love the hair! And holy crap, that is one of the most adorable lil pups I've ever seen!

that puppy is cute.

Then we should talk more often! Just do me a favor and don't spray-paint "REMO D. WILL BUM YOU SILLY FOR SPARE CHANGE" on my door, okay?

Hey um... you still alive out there??

I would see Gary. Maybe he just wants to be friends again. But, be careful. Don't let a temporary thing ruin your relationship. Hopefully you and Gary can still be friends and be in separate relationships.

I realize I'm getting in on this discussion a little late, BUT here's my two cents worth. First, if "Gary" has been fighting in Afghanistan, I'll guarantee you he's NOT the same guy you remember from 4 years ago. War changes a man!! Things that are critical and urgent to you will seem trivial and insignificant to him. Second, the reason you stayed infatuated with your jerk boyfriend back in the day instead of going for all that Gary had to offer, was because your jerk BF triggered you Oxytcoin response. Oxytcoin is also know as the "love hormone.: and it goes a long way toward explaining the eternal question of why women always go for jerks, while relegating the nice guys they meet to the infamous "Friend Zone," a bottomless abyss of unfulfilled dreams and desires!! Here's a link to more info on Oxytcoin, if you'd like to read more about it...http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Oxytocin.

I won't belabor the detailed explanation, but your body ramps up the production of Oxytcoin at times of stress and this dramatic increase in Oxytcoin makes you feel happy, soothed, and contented. It's a genetic thing in women the body developed to help cope with things like child birth, but it seems to have the same response to things like jerk boyfriends!! So, the more your jerk boyfriend stresses you out, the more oyxtcoin your body produces giving you a happy feeling. Consequently, you associate those happy feelings with the jerk boyfriend and mistake it for love. This is why you weren't more attracted to Gary back in the day...because he was too nice to really trigger your Oxytcoin response like your jerk boyfriend did.

As for present day, you've stated how much you love your boyfriend and how good he is in your life, ie...he's a nice guy and everything you understand about conventional wisdom tells you he should be making you happy, but he's not...NOT REALLY!! IF he were, you wouldn't be thinking about Gary and going to all the trouble to try to make contact with him!! There is a hole in your life, something your current boyfriend is not doing for you, which is why after four years you started thinking about Gary, because you associate Gary with the time when you're jerk boyfriend was tripping your trigger and over the passage of time you've blended those memories and emotions into the same thing. In a word, you are a slave to your body's chemistry, which is what is creating the confusion and conflicted emotions you are experiencing.

Sadly, you probably will not be satisfied until you resolve this issue for yourself, which will most probably end up with your eventual realization that Gary is not the same guy you remember him being and worst case will result in the loss of your current boyfriend too. All that glitters is not gold little one. All of life is just "in the moment" and the moment is constantly changing. People are seldom who we think they are in reality. Search inside yourself and conquer your own personal demons, because you can't be good for anyone in your life, until you're good for yourself.

Take Care,
Woody

ohh it was a sexy party!

Im reminded of that family guy scene where Stuey has a "sexy party"

wow, great tattoo....

do you have a uniform in the colour guard that is different from the band? It does sound like fun....

Good luck in school and color guard! Having Tuesday and Thursday off is the greatest schedule!!

try some preperation h

Thats so sad, good thoughts to you.

I'm so sorry, that is a terrible loss! My thoughts and prayers go out to you.