Shit, so after writing that I had this huge confrontation to begin, I got a call from my dad, who is in Miami. Miami is like my womb, in so many ways. I hate it. I was born in Colombia, we fled to Miami, and at that point I was introduced to the US.
But, my dad is demanding I go to see family that will be dead soon. My mom wants the same thing.
But, after going over abuse for weeks and months lately, I feel like I can't just be swept away to see my family when I have such a deep resentment against them right now.
But, I know I'm strong. I know I'm strong.
Fuck, I'm scared in a way that I haven't been since high school. Wow.
In other words, I have decided that while in Miami, I will demand ice-skates from my parents! Then, aoife and I can have a nice pair of pairs of iceskates.
I feel like I can write a template for my "serious" entries into my journals.
It will be something like "xxx mysterious ininuation xxx epic blank xxx I'm strong xxx hooray for me." Something along those lines at least.
But, my dad is demanding I go to see family that will be dead soon. My mom wants the same thing.
But, after going over abuse for weeks and months lately, I feel like I can't just be swept away to see my family when I have such a deep resentment against them right now.
But, I know I'm strong. I know I'm strong.
Fuck, I'm scared in a way that I haven't been since high school. Wow.
In other words, I have decided that while in Miami, I will demand ice-skates from my parents! Then, aoife and I can have a nice pair of pairs of iceskates.
I feel like I can write a template for my "serious" entries into my journals.
It will be something like "xxx mysterious ininuation xxx epic blank xxx I'm strong xxx hooray for me." Something along those lines at least.
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ugh, florida. I hate florida. I want to cut it loose from the rest of the continent.
I got sent home to work from home. hee hee. I think I'll watch Frida again instead. I love Frida, even if she did turn into a Stalinist.
I didn't go to SGBurlesque either. I went to the show at the Bluebird and then came home to pass out. I think I'm making myself sick.
don't know how the interview went. maybe good, maybe not. I don't wanna move, which may have to be taken into consideration.
I do wanna go skating on thursday. and to the DU hockey game on friday. and to Against Me! on saturday. so lemme know if you're up for any of the above (well, obviously Against Me!)