punishme

I gotta keep reminding myself not to be a hypocrit. i have repeated "dont be a hypocrit" like a mantra about 1000 times today. it totally sucks when something you hate so much creeps into you. i piss myself off because i HATE hypocrits but was being one today. well, tomorrow is another day and perhaps i will wake up to the old self and just say "whatever...who the fuck cares?" and roll with it.......