last monday i went to the doctor about the headaches i was having, they told me the same shit they told me back in janurary and put me on the same meds. i was less than satisfied by this outcome. somewhere around five that evening i start drinking knowing full well that i had to be into work at midnight. end up calling in sick and wake up with a headache twice as bad as the one i was trying to drink under the table, duh. i know. call in sick for tuesday night and make an appointment with the doctor for wednesday morning. go to the doctor wednesday morning and he puts me on more meds that i've already been on that didn't work the last time and sends me on my way. he says if it's not better by friday he will refer me to a neurologist. he said the same thing back in january and never did it. i leave and am fucking pissed as hell. so i decide not to bother going to fill the prescriptions at the pharmacy and instead go straight to vic's house. on the way to vic's house i run a stop sign because when i'm pissed off i drive like a retard and get into a lovely fender bender with a lady and her very big and scary looking boyfriend who are in a black 2000 civic lx. lovely. i was off work on thursday and spent to day moping about and thinking about what a damn retard i've been lately. on friday i go into work and am thrown into the check stand all by myself even though i've only had maybe six hours of training, oh yeah, and it's the first day of a three day sale. fuck me. the fear sets in. so i blunder through the weekend in the check stand not really knowing what the hell i'm doing but managing to make it work kind of. this brings us to now. vic just got over being sick. i still have the damn headaches all the time. and i'm on my period. and i'm depressed as shit. worst week of 2007 by far. i did manage to clean up a bit around the house on thursday while i wallowed in self pity. the house looks much better, my bedroom is the last bastion of filth. so yeah, last week was fucking swell. but really it can't get any worse so i remain a tad bit hopeful. seriously, where does all my time go?
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