psychofilly

I feel...unbalanced: not in the sense the phrase is so often used, to imply mental or emotional illness, but like my actions and my plans and my desires are not adding up, not balancing out in the long run, or even the short run, for that matter. And it leaves me feeling very much as though I've forgotten to do something, the way I feel when I know I've left something home which I will need on a long trip, but there is no way to go back and retrieve it.
I left home without remembering to bring my dreams with me...and now I am haunted.







it is now the afternoon. i feel so damn random. my mood has changed completely since this morning. i still feel unbalanced, yet random at the same time. there are a few things i need to get off my chest...

ok, so i lied about posting the pictures of my tattoo yesterday. i just haven't had the time.
i've been getting home from work, showering and going straight to bed for the past two weeks...
i won't promise anymore but say "hopefully thisweek some time..hopefully"

in other news; i'm getting my hair dyed after work tonight! yay! it's been three months since i've had time to dye my hair so i've been my natural brown for too long. i can't wait to be back in black!

was thinking about it this morning...i'm amazed at how good it feels to blog to no one in particular. i know some of you read these and i read blogs of other people. it's just nice to rant to "strangers" and not have to worry about running into someone tomorrow who knows what i've written. i like this feeling. thanks!
on the bad side of blogs... it must be easy for bloggers (on any site) to become dependant on comments from other people i find. i don't wake up in the morning hoping people will comment on my blog or anything, but it's a nice feeling to have someone seem to care. this is my first "long" blog since i've been on SG and i'm not expecting anything. like i said; it's nice to get things of my chest. (this is not by all means, a plea to have you comment. i swear)
i'm finding out how this can get quite addicting for some people.

I wish i had the day off the stay in bed all day watching Empire Records and eating Advil. i'm overwhelmed at work and do not have the time to take a personal day to refresh my batteries.

i bought the new Dropkick Murphys album last night.
...when i walked into the store the guy at the cash said he had one copy left but that he couldn't sell it to me! apparently the record label sent an email to push back the release date of the record! anyone eager enough to wake up early to purchase the album got a copy and the rest of us sad people who had to work were supposed to wait another week. i was sick of waiting for it! so i gave the guy my best puppy eyes and pleaded with him and he sold me the last copy!
i think i'll have to give this album a few listens before i can really get into it. Warriors Code was by far their best in my opinion.

my sister had a thistle with vines around her ankle tattooed last night and i think it's awfull. in my opinion, it was very poorly done. i'm so sad for her!
...she's in love with the piece! i don't get it! she says she loves it! what the hell?
i gave a nice white lie about liking it as well. and now i feel kinda guilty for not giving an honest opinion. but what was i supposed to say!? for the rest of our lives she'll know that i don't like her tattoo. i can't tell her the truth. i will continue to ooo and aww about it.
at least i'm happy that she's happy.