Sunday Porn. It's how I worship "creation" instead of herding into church. I'm an evolution man myself, not much for faith. I'm not obstinate in the fashion that if I can't see or touch it, therefore it's not possible, I'm still spiritualistic; however, facts tend to hold more weight with me if I can prove it. I don't like mystery, I positively salivate at problem solving, I own 2 rubiks cubes and am a huge soduko nut.
One mystery that seems unsolvable though is the human condition. Too many variables i suppose. We all have stereotypes, habits, tendencies, and other traits that make it possible to predict certain behavior with surprising accuracy. It's just those aberrations that make it a fun and wild ride. I blame emotion, it takes a forefront to rationality. I don't believe emotion can be controlled, I believe it is an autonomic neurochemical reaction to stimulus. This illusion of "control" some people profess is nothing more than the human ability to conceal outward expression, kind of like holding your breath. We have certain flexibility using concentration and will power, over our autonomic systems. Even with those people who can hold their breath until they pass out, overriding the bodies need to expel the rising level of CO2 in the blood, will eventually crack. They pass out, hit the floor, and low and behold the body regains control while the mind is in subconscious maintenance mode, and you start to breath again.
I guess thats why we can't do that with our heart, because you know some drunk dumbass will die at a party with the final words "hey look what I can do".
LoL, I would so be that guy. It's like relationships, they can suck but when it ends, you ever find yourself missing the "smell" of the other person? Smell is a major contributor to memory FYI. But seriously, smell? I know I've done it. Unpacking my shit in my new place I come across a shirt my ex used to sleep in all the time, despite being in a box for over a year, I could still detect faint traces of her perfume.
It's funny that when I smelled it though, I didn't think of anything bad, but rather recalled the first time we slept next to each other. How it felt wrapping her in my arms, feeling her heartbeat through her back, and nuzzling my nose under her ear so I could kiss her neck gently goodnight. She seemed to meld with me, I couldn't tell you where I stopped and she began. We were one and the same. I like that. It may not be rational, but it's nice that sudden memory recalls like that filter through the bullshit, and provide pleasantness. I think we all tend to dwell too much on the negative during breakups, whether it's anger, or just reflexive defense to harden our mind, so we don't feel the loss.
See there it is. If we could control our emotions, we wouldn't need to ever hurt, because nobody chooses to suffer. No matter how good you are at hiding it, with enough pressure, you will crack, just like breathing. It's what makes us unpredictable. I may not understand why someone is mad at me, because the topic is inane in my eyes, but to them it is important. Something to take with you, LOL, assuming you've made it this far down the rabbit hole of my thoughts. Next time you fight with your BF / GF, it doesn't really matter if it's important, just if it's important to them because nobody likes to feel what they think doesn't matter. That issue takes precedence over any topic, and I think we can all relate to that, who doesn't want to matter to their significant other right?
Till next we read my freaky darlings,
One mystery that seems unsolvable though is the human condition. Too many variables i suppose. We all have stereotypes, habits, tendencies, and other traits that make it possible to predict certain behavior with surprising accuracy. It's just those aberrations that make it a fun and wild ride. I blame emotion, it takes a forefront to rationality. I don't believe emotion can be controlled, I believe it is an autonomic neurochemical reaction to stimulus. This illusion of "control" some people profess is nothing more than the human ability to conceal outward expression, kind of like holding your breath. We have certain flexibility using concentration and will power, over our autonomic systems. Even with those people who can hold their breath until they pass out, overriding the bodies need to expel the rising level of CO2 in the blood, will eventually crack. They pass out, hit the floor, and low and behold the body regains control while the mind is in subconscious maintenance mode, and you start to breath again.
I guess thats why we can't do that with our heart, because you know some drunk dumbass will die at a party with the final words "hey look what I can do".
LoL, I would so be that guy. It's like relationships, they can suck but when it ends, you ever find yourself missing the "smell" of the other person? Smell is a major contributor to memory FYI. But seriously, smell? I know I've done it. Unpacking my shit in my new place I come across a shirt my ex used to sleep in all the time, despite being in a box for over a year, I could still detect faint traces of her perfume.
It's funny that when I smelled it though, I didn't think of anything bad, but rather recalled the first time we slept next to each other. How it felt wrapping her in my arms, feeling her heartbeat through her back, and nuzzling my nose under her ear so I could kiss her neck gently goodnight. She seemed to meld with me, I couldn't tell you where I stopped and she began. We were one and the same. I like that. It may not be rational, but it's nice that sudden memory recalls like that filter through the bullshit, and provide pleasantness. I think we all tend to dwell too much on the negative during breakups, whether it's anger, or just reflexive defense to harden our mind, so we don't feel the loss.
See there it is. If we could control our emotions, we wouldn't need to ever hurt, because nobody chooses to suffer. No matter how good you are at hiding it, with enough pressure, you will crack, just like breathing. It's what makes us unpredictable. I may not understand why someone is mad at me, because the topic is inane in my eyes, but to them it is important. Something to take with you, LOL, assuming you've made it this far down the rabbit hole of my thoughts. Next time you fight with your BF / GF, it doesn't really matter if it's important, just if it's important to them because nobody likes to feel what they think doesn't matter. That issue takes precedence over any topic, and I think we can all relate to that, who doesn't want to matter to their significant other right?
Till next we read my freaky darlings,
I, personally, am fine with experiencing pain every so often if it means for a little while I can be full of joy.