hey guys!!! MY SET GOES LIVE AT MIDNIGHT!! i'm so excited! and quite nervous to be honest.
so let me begin this blogpost by saying that i'm so grateful to everyone who has been following me on my journey of being a hopeful Suicide Girl and for all of the amazing compliments and comments i have gotten over these past few months!! many of you have helped me recognize beauty in myself that was and still is difficult for me to see. I struggle so much with my self image, so each and every comment i get i probably read a couple times and they truly touch me.
In honor of my set that comes out in THREE HOURS :):):) i'll talk a bit about the day the set was shot. Well, it was shot last February 12th with amazing @alissa taking photos and @radeo doing the styling, both of those people have helped me with my self image so much, here's a flashback photo of the instagram outtake :)
i stayed up all night preparing for it and i was also very excited and anxious, so when i woke up the day of i basically just showered, painted my finger and toenails, and packed my car and my bag for the shoot. I brought along a bunch of books including the main one featured in the set: Fahrenheit 451 by Ray Bradbury which is my favorite book, along with Atlas Shrugged by Ayn Rand. The others were a couple books of homeopathic remedies, a book of edgar allen poe stories/poems, life of pi, the perks of being a wallflower, and a few other favorites. i brought a world map, my incense, my little buddha, and my lava lamp as well so my car was pretty full. The cool lamp you see in the above picture actually just happened to be already in the house that was being rented and it makes a cool little appearance in my set as well, which was alissa :)
so when i left for the shoot, to be honest my social anxiety was spiking because i hadn't had much sleep and had to drive 3 hours, i got lost numerous times on the way there, i had to stop to get gas, my nail polish chipped, and i cried lol BUT i finally made it only to be delighted by how friendly alissa and radeo were and how easy and comfortable and FUN they made things for me! after radeo and alissa prettied me up, making me feel beautiful with their lovely compliments, we started shooting and we chose one of the bedrooms. the actual shoot was so much fun, i was so nervous, but alissa kept me talking the whole time. afterwards (i was fangirling extremely hard on the inside the entire time), we smoked a joint of some of the fire colorado herb that alissa was gracious enough to smoke me out on and then she got me absolutely baked when i hit her sutra with colorado oil in it. so i left extremely high and completely drained but i was still absolutely giddy with excitement over the things to come.
and now we're here! the day is finally here where my set will go LIVE and i can officially identify as a hopeful suicide girl. here's a few more teasers, one of them i haven't shown you guys yet ;3
