An open mind leaves a chance for someone to drop a worthwhile thought in it
The year so far seems to be working out for me. Though it's kinda hard to tell.
I think it's the possibilities that are really shining through.
I'm optimistic as ever. And I have a strong belief I can create a wonderful life.
Writing this has brought the sunshine out from beneath the rain. Did I do that?
I think so.
I deserve good things. We all do. But I think I especially do. Last year and in the previous one, I had some very dark times with a partner who became mentally ill. I'm so sad about it. Thinking about it makes me hurt.
She was an artist. That person is ok now but the experiences will never leave me. And I had to move on. Nobody will ever understand what happened and what I saw. And how hard I worked and the strength and courage I developed. I sometimes see people shouting alone in the street and I start crying.
And yes, sometimes I feel lonely. It's just the little world and me.
What I need is someone to appear from the blue and whisk me away.
A beautiful girl with magical eyes. That would be nice.
It might even save me from marrying my bicycle. My current girlfriend.
We go everywhere together and play games. For romantic days out.
Though I have to leave her outside of the galleries.
I guess we could all be a family together.
So what's next for me?
-Well more bike polo. (4EVA)
-More art and to be an artist.
I'm waiting to hear back if I get on a painting course for free which is an opportunity that comes with my job.
If I'm gonna design clothing and prints on the computer, which I'm good at but not overly into, then I need to express myself through other forms. Painting and drawing would work. I've done that all of my life.
And sculpture and making things by hand is a natural talent.
-A nice girl I can share stories with. We'd be inseparable mentally but both be creatively individuals whilst sometimes working together. Definitely influencing each others work.
Is this possible?
Be glad of life because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars.
babyhead:
Yes.