Hey guys
im super sorry for my lack of motivation to write, or basically do anything lately. Ive been in a very strange mental state with my anxiety and depression lately. Ive been very off with talking in general, on top of the anxiety of allowing others into my thoughts,
To add to it, today my mall went on lockdown a hlf hour into my shift. Many said there was a shooter in out mall so my coworkers, customers and I were very scared. Later we found out there was a robbery just upstairs from us at a jewelry store. I am safe and we were given the commands to go home. No one was caught unfortunately and I do have to go back to work tomorrow, but I believe Ill be okay.
And later in the day I was very uncomfortably hit on while pumping gas, and at this point I really just dont want to go in to public anymore, or for awhile. My anxiety is at an all time high and Im trying to maintain my mental state and my anxiety.
Basically this is me saying Im just overloaded and one thing after another keeps happening and I just hope you guys dont give up on me. A lot of happy thoughts would be me the best and I could use all of it ❤️ I love you guys
- xo Prurient