prudence

it seems like everyone is emotionally exhausted. maybe it was a good thing that the site was down for a few hours, to give everyone a break.

jealousy is a bad, bad thing. the person that hurts the most is you, and you often end up disliking a perfectly decent person for no real reason. i've certainly been guilty of jealousy, too, but i know enough to be able to recognize it, and try to work on it. it's really hard, though. maybe when i feel jealous of somone, it gives me some sort of psychological protection. maybe it's less scary to me than actually admiting that someone is better (prettier, smarter, funnier, sexier, more talented, etc.)than i am. when you strive to be the best at somethin, it can be painful to admit to yourself that you never can be the best.

i've been here a month now, and i'm still not sure if this site is good or bad for me. so far, it's a little of both. even if it turned out that the bad outweighed the good, i still don't think i could bring myself to leave here. i've grown to love so many of you.