So I'm sitting here with about 14 hours left before my first set posts, and I've never been so nervous and excited over something in my life.
I thought I would take a moment to reflect on what this journey means to me.
A lot of girls want this. A lot of girls dream of becoming a Suicide Girl, and by no means do I consider myself any more worthy than any of them. There are so many deserving girls on here, and I wish each and every one of them the best. I only want to reflect on my dream, and why this would mean so much to me.
I have given up a lot on this journey. When I first heard of Suicide Girls, I was maybe 14 and MySpace was still the super cool thing. I remember following their page and always commenting about how I wanted to be a Suicide Girl. Over the years, that dream never went away. It gained more meaning. I made friends with girls from the site and gained a lot of respect for fellow alternative women and what we face on the internet by exposing our bodies. It has been a long journey, and at times a really painful one. I've lost a lot of friends along the way, who don't really respect or understand the desire and the art. And that's fine. Shit happens. But I still don't feel any less comfortable in my own skin, and I still hold my head up high and chase that same dream. It would mean the world to me, to have this journey reach its destination. But even beyond that, to make more friends, teach more people love, respect, and tolerance, and to learn more about myself in the process.
So with my set posting tomorrow (well, midnight rolled over, so now it's today), I really hope you guys see the love and endurance that went into it. I really hope it continues to propel this journey, and as always, I am so thankful to you guys for traveling down this road with me.
With much love,
-Proxxi
