prophecusp

it's so weird to be on my own. i haven't had time alone for 6 years now. it's been a constant neutral path with the same duality since i was 20. so much has happened since then.

it has been her and i all along. we've learned everything and done it together. we've become twin siblings even. our lives and paths are continuing and splitting at once. our creative/career path is mutually linked, as is my living space, but the end of something is coming soon. it's as if we've learned all we can in our cocoon together and that somehow has to change.

anyone who knows us would say that it has always been this way. we remain in a fatalistic death and re-birth stasis at all times. tiny deaths have always provided life. but now there are outside forces to complicate matters and reason as well as a cold heart might finally pry us away from our routine.

i don't have a label for this person...she's always been so rad. she's my : bandmate, lover, teacher, student and best pal all rolled into one. i can't imagine having to divide up those roles..they all work. but i might not have to, if i can just accept that we are each of us individually and the duo. we need to learn to let each other go, before we can finally just be. it is the hardest and latest test. a test we need to pass before we can make it in LA.

so many flavors missing from the palate in years passed. learning from the inside, devoid of experience. into the lion's den alone, yet as a team...but i know that our creation will survive. we have a plan. we'll see what happens...no big deal.