so i skipped my last day at the corporate coffee hole today. i neither called nor showed. i was supposed to get up @ 4:45 AM but decided to shut my ringer off and sleep until 11:30. i felt like i was in Office Space a bit. i just had to burn that bridge just a little. besides, how do you leave a job on a monday after the weekend? and i had a strange weekend....
i got to entertain a friend from wmass and her travelling companion who were a month into a cross country trek. it was strange for me to have female company these days. it's all guys (mostly gay) and my room mate/twin sister...but things with her are uber weird.
i have the strangest relationship. i don't know what to make of it...but for now it endures in a domestic situation purely because of financial constraints....that and habit of course. it's become so cold. we both want to leave the beautiful palace weve built together. if only those on the outside knew how lonely we are together, but everyone just sees the perfect combo. we are masters of illusion...we've opened many doors and now reap the consequences of our meddling with energy....the strangest coincidences are strarting to happen.
perhaps the oddest part is that we are the best of friends, despite being constantly in a state of seperation. i traded the right to passion for endless imagination and intellect.
it's like i'm going through a divorce or something.
we both crave fire, but not for each other. it has never been that way. we sit around and share the stories of almost romance weve had outside of each other (how weird is that?) we play therapist and trauma together.
it's time to be alone or in a new intimate connection....but what do you do when your current survival rests upon sharing a room because of $? talk about freedom v. security
there is just so much revolution in the air! at least things are exciting! her and i still agree on that.
maybe tomorrow my prayers to jupiter will be answered. all i ask is for intoxicating romance and freedom from money matters great and small...everything else despite this madness seems to be wonderful...
i am most appreciative to the gods and look forward to everyday with vigor....but how the fuck do i get out of this situation?
i got to entertain a friend from wmass and her travelling companion who were a month into a cross country trek. it was strange for me to have female company these days. it's all guys (mostly gay) and my room mate/twin sister...but things with her are uber weird.
i have the strangest relationship. i don't know what to make of it...but for now it endures in a domestic situation purely because of financial constraints....that and habit of course. it's become so cold. we both want to leave the beautiful palace weve built together. if only those on the outside knew how lonely we are together, but everyone just sees the perfect combo. we are masters of illusion...we've opened many doors and now reap the consequences of our meddling with energy....the strangest coincidences are strarting to happen.
perhaps the oddest part is that we are the best of friends, despite being constantly in a state of seperation. i traded the right to passion for endless imagination and intellect.
it's like i'm going through a divorce or something.
we both crave fire, but not for each other. it has never been that way. we sit around and share the stories of almost romance weve had outside of each other (how weird is that?) we play therapist and trauma together.
it's time to be alone or in a new intimate connection....but what do you do when your current survival rests upon sharing a room because of $? talk about freedom v. security
there is just so much revolution in the air! at least things are exciting! her and i still agree on that.
maybe tomorrow my prayers to jupiter will be answered. all i ask is for intoxicating romance and freedom from money matters great and small...everything else despite this madness seems to be wonderful...
i am most appreciative to the gods and look forward to everyday with vigor....but how the fuck do i get out of this situation?
yeah mocing to the best city for someone is a good thing, i really want to go to london one day