probasco

I feel like crap. I was in a good mood, but damn. I am sincerely lonely and I don't feel like I am anything. I want something but I don't know what it is. I just want a friend. I feel like I don't have any friends. I have a lot of acquaintances, but I need something more.

Plus, I try and help everyone else so much other than me, I feel drained. I just want to focus on me for a little while. I give %110 to everyone else other than me. When People shove what I give back in my face, I just end up feeling drained. I have been thinking about Mercie's problems so much and she insulted the crap out of me. I just want some satisfaction that me caring has some warrant to the rest of the world.

I know that I shouldn't care. I know that I don't want to care. It sounds stupid for me to even care how Mercie feels, but I really want her to feel better. I like her as a person so much. I just want her to feel better.

In the wise words of Sage Francis, "Sweet Jesus, Who wants to be with me? Who wants to be mine and me theirs in return?"