probablecauz

i always use to love the holiday season. i don't know if it's because i am getting older or just don't have a lot of the important people in my life i use to. the holiday season just doesn't feel the same. lately i just haven't felt myself at all. there are a lot of things in my life i have control over but it's the ones that i don't have control over that are bothering me. i hate feeling like this. this is the time of year to be out and about and smiling. right now i feel the complete opposite. i have been through a lot of ups and downs over the past few years and i think it is finally catching up to me i just don't know what to do to get myself out of this funk. i can only hope things change soon.