probablecauz

i know these blogs we post are suppose to be about anything we are feeling. so i feel it's a place for me to vent. whether you read it or not that's not my concern. SG has become a big part of my life as i have met many amazing people. me posting things here allows me to let out somethings that are sometimes hard to actually say. my life recently has been a roller coaster ride. ups and downs and everything in between. i am trying my hardest to make the ups more prevalent then the downs. it just seems like every time i take 1 step forward i am taking 15 steps back. there is some negativity in my life that will hopefully be a thing of the past. with these certain things/people out of my life i think i can really turn things around and hopefully get off of this roller coaster. don't get me wrong. my life is not a total mess. it's just not going the way i had expected. luckily i have been able to reconnect with and old friend who has helped me to think more positive about my life. right now that is what i really need. more positive people. so to all those negative people and things in my life you will soon be gone. just remember don't ever take my kindness as a weakness. i am very far from a weak person. if anyone wants to challenge me on that i say "bring it on" i have always been a caring a loving person with only the best intentions for me and the ones i care for. no matter what happens to me in my life i am not going to change that. i was lucky to have a wonderful mother who taught me how to be a great person. now that she is gone i have to continue that.(RIP mom) when its all said and done i am who i am. if you don't like that then oh well. then you probably shouldn't be in my life. as the days go by i continue to strive to be the best me. it's what i need to help heal all these wounds inside. i think i will end my rant here. i will say once again that SG is a great place for me to be me. i value that greatly.