I would make a horrible blogger. I rarely update this journal.
I'm feeling so perplexed by Portland. I like so much of it. The rain is starting to take a toll on me. I'm depressed enough already.
I'm making a few friends here, but no romantic interests. I feel like there's no single lesbian or bi girls in this town. It's like living in Santa Cruz all over again, except that I can travel all over town and just be by myself and find places of solitude.
I've been fairly depressed over finding a job that makes me somewhat feel happy and appreciated. I really hope I get this Portland State library job. I miss being a paraprofessional librarian.
It sucks to look for work when you have vast experience in one field. Good lord, I'm not inept, I can learn anything. My experience searching for work alone convinces me that the Republican motto of initiative is bullshit. I have 8/9 years of library experience and can't find a job. How is someone who's done the same job for 20 or so years supposed to just "work harder" to find another job when their industry is shipped overseas?
I tired of being depressed. But I think that my brain is just hardwired that way. I enjoy things, that's for sure. But I feel like my sadness is a empathic sponge. I think it's my burden to be sad when others want distraction from sorrow.
I think I'll end my thoughts here and go enjoy some PBR.
I'm feeling so perplexed by Portland. I like so much of it. The rain is starting to take a toll on me. I'm depressed enough already.
I'm making a few friends here, but no romantic interests. I feel like there's no single lesbian or bi girls in this town. It's like living in Santa Cruz all over again, except that I can travel all over town and just be by myself and find places of solitude.
I've been fairly depressed over finding a job that makes me somewhat feel happy and appreciated. I really hope I get this Portland State library job. I miss being a paraprofessional librarian.
It sucks to look for work when you have vast experience in one field. Good lord, I'm not inept, I can learn anything. My experience searching for work alone convinces me that the Republican motto of initiative is bullshit. I have 8/9 years of library experience and can't find a job. How is someone who's done the same job for 20 or so years supposed to just "work harder" to find another job when their industry is shipped overseas?
I tired of being depressed. But I think that my brain is just hardwired that way. I enjoy things, that's for sure. But I feel like my sadness is a empathic sponge. I think it's my burden to be sad when others want distraction from sorrow.
I think I'll end my thoughts here and go enjoy some PBR.
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redbstrd:
I have always been more interested in Hinayana (or Theravedan) Buddhism. It is often criticized as being too exclusive or elitist in its conception of redemption. That isn't really what I am concerned with, so I am not sure if take that criticism very seriously. Anyway, good luck on the job search. I think I single-handedly keep a few libraries in business with the late fees I always end up paying. I tried applying at libraries in the past too. Nothing ever came of it. When you can find a position with a library, you have a right to be proud. It is a rather noble profession (as emmagoldman already said).
sweetavenue:
i'm with you on ronnie. may he not RIP.