princeofcats

Yeah, so it turns out the reason that I got ditched for my date last weekend was that she was going out with one of my friends. I freaking just give up on attempting to date anyone in Ausitn. I hate being in long distance relationships, but I just don't think anyone here is right for me. Well, more accurately, I'm not right for them.

I know I'm not very attractive, and don't have much to offer, but seriously, you'd think every now and then, I would just happen to turn someones eyes. I feel so hopeless and invisible.

Akon is going to be so expensive, so much money that I don't really have, just shoved onto the credit cards. I go to these things because its the only time people look at me. If I'm in a cosplay, then a few people seem to actually realize I exist.

I've come to realize that I'll never have friends here other than the one. My current gf lives in Arlington and we only see each other at anime cons. She's not even the girl I want to really be with, but I know she loves me, and I have to hold onto that, because I won't find it anywhere else. I just wish I could feel the same way about her. I feel like a bad person because I don't want her the same way. Beggars can't be choosers though, so I better get used to it.