On Feeling:
I'm not sure I've had a feeling in awhile. I fear that what I
originally may have mistaken for a feeling was really just
the Recollection of a feeling. A sentimental sort of Deja-vu.
When I try to think about how I feel... this is where I believe
the problem began...I can't seem to remember how or where
the original emotion began. I'm swimming backwards, caught
in the inertia of what I originally believed to be forward move-
ment. It's not that I'm lost, per se. That would mean that I could
recall a time when I had committed myself to a destination. Mabye
I should be sad. Things haven't been going very well for me. Mabye I
should be angry, since I've had the rug pulled out from under me. But
I'm not. I don't know
I'm not sure I've had a feeling in awhile. I fear that what I
originally may have mistaken for a feeling was really just
the Recollection of a feeling. A sentimental sort of Deja-vu.
When I try to think about how I feel... this is where I believe
the problem began...I can't seem to remember how or where
the original emotion began. I'm swimming backwards, caught
in the inertia of what I originally believed to be forward move-
ment. It's not that I'm lost, per se. That would mean that I could
recall a time when I had committed myself to a destination. Mabye
I should be sad. Things haven't been going very well for me. Mabye I
should be angry, since I've had the rug pulled out from under me. But
I'm not. I don't know
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katie_:
Sorry you didn't get to go to APC. If it makes you feel any better, the tour dates came out maybe 2 weeks before the first show, so lots of people didn't know. I didn't even know til I saw an ad in the Phoenix and then it was too late to get tickets from Ticketmaster-off to eBay I went. I must say though, I do not feel my money was wasted. The show on Sunday was amazing and I loved the new songs they played. There are live mp3s floating about if you'd like to hear some new stuff. Also- Maynard has been calling this tour a "soundcheck" or a "warmup", and said on Sunday that they'll be touring again right after Thirteenth Step is released next month. I assume it'll be a bigger tour (that is, bigger venues) so maybe we'll both get to see APC for a humane price
pucabul:
Sorry to hear things aren't going too well, but... as trite as it sounds some text said "This, too, shall pass." Perseverance is a virtue. In time, if you're a feeling person, you'll begin to remember what emotions are and what a grand variety there is. I've found that as hard as it can be for me to deal with the hard times in life, they do make the good ones much sweeter. Unless I'm feeling down and then it just makes them bitter-sweet. 