possession09

if this sinus/coughy/sniffy/spacey all the time thingy does not go away i am going to scream....if i have enough damn energy.
how long will this go on...i eat soup (since i can hardly handle anything else) i am sleeping at all hours of hte day and nite.....i am staying warm,
taking vitamins....akkkkkk...this thing sure is hanging on...

last nite i made it out to a drag ball...i had to since my ex (and best friend) was performing.....damn she looked so beautiful...i caught myself....missing her, wanting her, WHAT???? im supposed to be over her...
im supposed to have moved on....so should she...but i know shes hasnt..i seen it in her eyes....
i dont know what to think about all that. i wanted to go get coffee and sit outside and just think...figure out why i miss this person so much when i should be moving onward (and in all aspects we pretend that we have....dating other people..blahblah) why is this
woman in my head??? ..but its too cold. its icky here, and i feel icky...and if i dont get a break from all this shite..im going to go crazy..

hope everyone else is sniffle free