so yeah. i feel like im goin insane. after being pretty much untouchable for 4 years, along comes this spider
in the form of a girl with tattoos, piercings, a job AND a great personality.
she sure spun her web. and i dont even know if she likes me or not. she is by far the MOST confusing girl that i have ever hung out with
dated, whatever you want to call that phase before you finally admit to one another that you like each other....or maybe dont like each other for that matter.
i dont know.....im angry with myself cause this is the first time in 4 years that i have let anyone effect me. well, its not like i really had a choice, it was just like damn! i like this chic.
and of course i am at a lose, since i have barely dated or anything for years...what do i do?? what do i say?? ugh.
now i remember why i chose to be single for so long.
knowing me, with my self destructive nature, i will probably end up finding out that she doesnt like me or that she has five other girlfriends on the side, or something. hell, i might even find out that she likes me
but that she is completely bad for me..which wouldnt be a surprise. what is up with that self-destructive relationship kick? is the cycle ever going to end?
besides that, i miss my best friend horribly (she moved away) and school sucks. i love school, but damn after 3 years of the shit, and now im looking forward to a billion more years if i get accepted into med school i need a hiatus. badly.
grrrr....life IS really a bitch sometimes, i guess i just got remind myself to be bitcher so i can at least have one up on it.
in the form of a girl with tattoos, piercings, a job AND a great personality.
she sure spun her web. and i dont even know if she likes me or not. she is by far the MOST confusing girl that i have ever hung out with
dated, whatever you want to call that phase before you finally admit to one another that you like each other....or maybe dont like each other for that matter.
i dont know.....im angry with myself cause this is the first time in 4 years that i have let anyone effect me. well, its not like i really had a choice, it was just like damn! i like this chic.
and of course i am at a lose, since i have barely dated or anything for years...what do i do?? what do i say?? ugh.
now i remember why i chose to be single for so long.
knowing me, with my self destructive nature, i will probably end up finding out that she doesnt like me or that she has five other girlfriends on the side, or something. hell, i might even find out that she likes me
but that she is completely bad for me..which wouldnt be a surprise. what is up with that self-destructive relationship kick? is the cycle ever going to end?
besides that, i miss my best friend horribly (she moved away) and school sucks. i love school, but damn after 3 years of the shit, and now im looking forward to a billion more years if i get accepted into med school i need a hiatus. badly.
grrrr....life IS really a bitch sometimes, i guess i just got remind myself to be bitcher so i can at least have one up on it.
maryjane:
Breath deeply... love what you do have and know that what is supposed to come will do so in time. Don't fear heartache, it too is a life experience. Sit back and let the good times roll. You are groovy, so let your grooviness shine and let rainbows shower you with the bright colors your heart has been needing. Be self- constructive, not destructive. Peace and love, MaryJane