posh

i want to run away to a cabin on the coast, garden and make babies that i won't let catch on fire. i'm very much in a run away phase. for the sole reason that everything is too complicated and i just want a simple life right now. i want to strip it all away. all away to the bare minimum. and never wear shoes. because i hate wearing shoes. and i love going barefoot. unless there are used needles around. which isn't really a problem.

that's really a lie. i want to live in a nice place on the coast, amidst beautiful surroundings, designed with green in mind and go out to nice restaurants where i can wear strappy shoes. nice restaurants are important, because i love food.

the key importance is not having to worry about anything. anymore. i am sick and tired of worrying. literally.

oh, what to do. the heart and mind are at war. and it is making my stomach upset. or maybe that's the ridiculous amount of espresso i've consumed.

don't you ever feel there are too many eyes on you?

oh, and ... i believe i've developed an allergies to cats. this is karma for leaving cat behing on my journeys. clearly, the cat gods are cursing me with uncomfortable postnasal drip.