poppy

this weekend ive been:
shoved
called a cunt
plus other names with the word fucking attached to it
afraid
screamed out
had to ban someone from house due to broken glass and
broken hands
avoid call after call after text and aim

all this from someone who tells me they love me
i love him but...

to make matters worse, someone else who i dated:
we decided(and that means me) that we should be friends
cant drink and think at the same time
no matter what i do i have to explain in full detail like oh 4xs

tonight i realized(while having a panic attack)
i date boys as of recently who dont listen to a thing i say
its what they want..and if i dont give in...its crazy time
phone calls
texts
accusations
name calling
pushing
threats
ultimatums
stalking

that sums up my last yr of dating...thanks boys
thanks for helping me decide id rather stay home with my dog..who just wants to cuddle under a blanket.
ill be spending my summer nights wasted watching back to back law and orders and under aged and engaged

like i said before too bad i love someone who treats me in not a nice way


oh yeah i got a new tattoo like 2 weeks ago. its a cover up on my back. pictures soon once i show valentina how to work the camera
♥
xo