poordelia

i got paid today.<3 it feels so awesome being somewhat independent again. i hope i have enough money left over after getting groceries and my taxes done for getting my hair cut or my nose pierced.

i think i'm losing weight. all my clothes feel looser. yay! i'm just sad that i'll probably lose my boobies. :/ good-bye, b/c-cup!

i kind of have a crush on someone and i feel like such a dork! XD i don't even know this person. i think i just miss being flirtacious and getting attention. i am pretty flirtacious by nature. and i'm not even sure i'm the kind of person who's good in monogomous relationships...for a long time, anyway. i miss that adrenaline rush you get when you start flirting with someone, when you're like "oh wow, they like me too! YEAH!" and you're nervously calculating your first kiss, your first canoodling, your first time having sex....it's all just such a rush! it's like a drug to me!

of course, maybe i'm remembering things a little too fondly. almost all of my dating experiences were more awkward than anything. i just never really had an oppurtunity to really get out there and fully enjoy dating...oh well. being in a relationship has its advantages as well. i can't remember the last time i went to bed crying.