Hi SG. My name is PJ. Been an admirer of you all for some time. Figured I'd join and meet some of you.
I feel like a pariah compared to most on this site. I'm socially retarded. I have no social life at all. I stay in my room most of the time. Playing games or whatever. Why you ask? Cause I'm fucked up in the head. I had my face bashed in about nine years ago and it messed me up pretty bad. It left me with PTSD. You know, anxiety, panic attacks, fear of the black man. I gave up my life after that. I didn't have much to give up though. I was a drunk and a fiend. Dead and hollow on the inside.
I'm not as fucked up these days. I can get out the house and be around people. I even talk to people sometimes. The anxiety still tries to kick in at times but I can control it. I don't have any close friends anymore. After nine years all my friends either moved on, moved away, or died. It's hard to pick things up after so long. It feels like I've been on pause all this time while my friends played on. It's strange.
As fucked up as my life may be I still keep my chin up and try to enjoy my time. I'm a mellow fellow. I love to laugh and goof around. Anyway, I'm here and I'm saying 'Hi'.
I feel like a pariah compared to most on this site. I'm socially retarded. I have no social life at all. I stay in my room most of the time. Playing games or whatever. Why you ask? Cause I'm fucked up in the head. I had my face bashed in about nine years ago and it messed me up pretty bad. It left me with PTSD. You know, anxiety, panic attacks, fear of the black man. I gave up my life after that. I didn't have much to give up though. I was a drunk and a fiend. Dead and hollow on the inside.
I'm not as fucked up these days. I can get out the house and be around people. I even talk to people sometimes. The anxiety still tries to kick in at times but I can control it. I don't have any close friends anymore. After nine years all my friends either moved on, moved away, or died. It's hard to pick things up after so long. It feels like I've been on pause all this time while my friends played on. It's strange.
As fucked up as my life may be I still keep my chin up and try to enjoy my time. I'm a mellow fellow. I love to laugh and goof around. Anyway, I'm here and I'm saying 'Hi'.
niobe:
Hello.