6/12: Share an experience from your past that helped shape you into the person you are today @bloghomework @missy @rambo
My whole life has been full of experiences that have made me the crazy dysfunctional person I am today.
One specific experience would have to be living in a motel with my mom and sister. It was a pretty rough patch in our lives but still super awesome at the same time. It helped me grow my crazy cat lady life because we would feed all the hotel strays lol.
Really though, I met an amazing girl there named Nina. Her family were amazing people and I wish she didn't leave because she probably would've been one of those friends that are there by my side forever. She is the reason I believed there were good people and there was such a thing as a happy family. Not that my family wasn't/isn't happy but it's become a huge, divided, somewhat evil mess.
Living there also made me grateful for anything and everything I have, being a child with separated parents that bashed each other 24/7 wasn't easy, adding on the constant moving just made it harder, but living in the motel made me realize that material things, including a home, can be gone in the snap of a finger. Because we moved around so much I've grown up and am constantly moving. I can never find that "home" feeling. I'm never comfortable staying in one place. I've also lived in a motel with my oldest daughter before and although I was judged up and down for it, I was doing what I had to. And because I had been there as a child I knew that things were going to get better, I just had to make sure of it.
My life isn't stable, it isn't easy, it isn't roses and unicorns but it is amazing still. Every fucked up struggle I went through has made me fight harder to keep myself from putting my kids through the same. And although they have experienced some of the same struggles I've been able to keep them happy, healthy and safe.
