Gonna go back a bit and do some past @bloghomework .~~2/7: "What inspired you to become a SuicideGirl?" (in your case, a Hopeful!)~~I'm choosing this specific topic due to the amount of trolls I've encountered since getting that Hopeful title.
I became a member when I turned 18 in 2008(I applied to be a model), I had followed the girls as much as I could before I was 18(yeah I was one of the "break the rules" kids) what was inspiring? I loved everything about the idea behind SG, I loved how welcoming people were, how supportive people were and how much I actually got to know about people. I loved seeing these beautiful women from all walks of life express themselves 100% and have complete confidence. It amazed me at how comfortable and confident complete strangers could make me feel.
Why wouldn't I want to be a part of this? Maybe because of all the negative things I've heard? Maybe because there's a man running things? Because I could wait forever and never be pink? Guess what, I will determine if this is for me or not. I don't use google to tell me what is for me and not for me. I am not here only to be pink, would I love that? Hell yes, but I don't base me being here only on the chance at being pink. This is in no offense to any former models or members, I respect them all and support anyone who decides it's not for them.
I faded off the site after a while because of a relationship(not bf) with someone who was completely against me even talking about SuicideGirls. I missed it so much when I left but never stopped checking in on things. A few years passed and The Burlesque Show came to Baltimore last year. I jumped on the opportunity to go and enjoy a great show and see my crush @jennings :) While at the show @sunny announced a little dance competition, I screamed and yelled and she brought me up on stage. It was a blast, and with it I won the dance competition and got a membership. I signed up and spent a little over a month exploring the site(it's a lot different now), interacting with some people and getting in to groups. I then decided to fill out my model app and shoot a set. Set was approved and I am now a Hopeful.
NOW A LITTLE SIDE NOTE to add onto why being here is so amazing and inspiring:
Regardless of what title is next to my name, I'm just another woman here having fun and building REAL relationships. Now, with that said, let me tell you about my IG thoughts. DO I have have one? Yes, I have an Instagram, it was my personal IG before it was my SG Instagram, so some people don't like that there are pictures of my family and pets on there. Well, although I'm part of a "nude modeling" community, I'm not gonna pretend that I have no life outside of SG. Most of my Instagram followers aren't part of SG, so they expect things that to me, aren't realistic. On here, I can talk about my kids my pets, what I'm watching and so on, and I get full conversations with awesome people. On Instagram I get, "you're fat," "Don't post your kids, I can't cum to that" It's expected but it's disgusting. I don't have to deal with that nonsense here. I have FAMILY AND SUPPORT, even from people who don't necessarily like me, they still will write nice things to me. That is inspiring. That is comforting. And that is how it should be.