polisciguy

I'm cycling fast again, aybe it's just stress. Hitting way too many high-low rollercoasters.

Big part of it is my job, telemarketing. I can't keep it up. Gotta find something else.

A big part of it is Kerbs (see pics section). It's a long story, but the short of it is it didn't work out. She was the love of my life and it didn't work out. It's been two years now, we never ever really dated. We were "just friends" for so long, but we were going to get married. It was complex thing, but it worked, and we were happy. We complemented each other perfectly.

I started talking to her a few months ago. I still hear from her once in a while. She's off finding herself. I'm certain of where I am but uncertain where I am going, or if there is even a point. I wish I was with her. I'm afraid for her. Maybe it's a selfish fear, maybe I fear all that she represents to me. Maybe I just too scared to face the rest of my life without her. Maybe it's the uncertainly if she will stay away or come back?