polarbear

Lots of things have happened. Became a grandfather. Biggest joy of my life. Screwed up my marriage losing both her and my grandson. The loss literally almost killed me. Still might. We'll see. Got on meds and started counseling. Trying to start all over. But I'm trying at least. Thought stepping away from here would help me take my freaky side but that totally failed. Thought it was what would make her happy but it destroyed us anyway. So now? Fuck it. Maybe it's time to just embrace who I've been fighting NOT to be. I'm an outcast here in south Louisiana but I don't care anymore. I'm gonna find my happiness no matter what. Or die trying.