poketroket

I hate that he see's me.
I hurt when he doesn't see me.

I went to visit my friend who has had her first baby, Chloe Rose. As you may be aware, from previous blogs, i dont particularly like babies/children. But as soon as i looked at little Chloe, sleeping with her hands up beside her face, my heart melted.

I watched my friend with Chloe, holding her, feeding her, it all came so natural to my friend....
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Im about to take the plunge.
standing, lingering, contemplating the impact of my near future decisions.
i want it
its wrong
but that's what is so tempting
im taking it
its mine
ill deal with the with consequences when they come calling.

Over the years i have had many different friendship groups. Being the odd one out at school i quickly grew out of my school friends after graduation bar a couple of boys who i still catch up for drinks with.

I have had 4 best friends in my lifetime.

One who ended up turning my friends on me because i decided to make friends with...
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i have been painting today, this painting i started before i moved into my new place. I feel like im getting nowhere.... i have no interest in it now, im bored with it. Ahh the curse of Aries. I always find finishing and following things through hard. To try and fight this curse i have given myself a time frame. Im meeting my friend for...
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Looked out my window to see birds flying in a V.
Ok ok, a wonky V - but still a V!
Today is going to bring good things!


xxx

Wings outstretched
Ready to fly
Eager to start a whole new life
On top of the cage
Close your eyes
Inhale a deep breath
You lunge for the sky
Flapping your wings
Sweet feeling of freedom
Lasts only for a while
As you fall to the ground.

Had a f**cking awesome weekend with Sin and SandraLee. Too many words to describe this weekend if i listed them all. And am too tired to write a proper blog*! Here are just a few words:

exhilarating
hair raising
adventure
anxious
nerve racking
laughter
enjoyment
playfulness
tipsy
strippers
bath tub
fight
aching body


* Refer to SandraLee's blog


Now completely unrelated link. If...
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Its almost 2.00 am, I cant sleep and suffering from boredom.

Today i looked at the clock at work at 9.11 am. This has been happening for at least two years now and happens almost everyday and sometimes in the evening as well. I know of people who believe in the 11.11 theory and have heard rumours of them having some sort of club. I...
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Spent the last 12 hours packing and moving but the new place has no power! Im back at the old place, thank f**k we have power and the net is still! on!

No clothes to change, no toiletries, no towels no clothes equals me not leaving. BUT i have wine glasses and a bottle of wine... YES!!! But no bloody opener! Its a Saturday night...
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Kill me. Or give me a muzzle...


Sorry guys - nothing as exciting as you may have been thinking! Nothing to do with sex, unfortunately. Although, i could have incorporated that into what i was imagining!

Maybe i should elaborate?...

I was fairly tipsy after work going home in a car with my boss's niece. She is 19 and naive and was the one who...
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