pokes

Today i swallowed a great deal of pride. Doing so felt so liberating; I'm tempted to go and apologize to everyone i know for anything and everything i've ever done wrong if only to see if it lifts a previously forgotten weight off of my conscience.
Also today I discovered what an inept tool i am. This heavenly chica sat accross from me in the Thai restaurant I ate dinner at and proceeded to smile at me and flirt with her eyes. Despite knowing she was attracted to me and obviously receptive to any advance i might have made, i found myself unable to go over and talk to her. Perhaps it's merely that I was eating with my sister in law, her family, and my parents that kept me from being able to act on impulse but whatever the case, it felt quite humbling to have no nerve, if only temporarily. All in all it's been a humbling day.