poetik

My mood changes like the current of the water.

hope your mood changes back soon

edited to say : you must know who i am. at least I assume you do.



[Edited on Oct 28, 2003 9:22PM]

right on buddy! how's the day today?
I think I talked "her" into staying here with us
do you have aim? much easier than talking through here.

long chats online? do tell!
new things are always so...titillating
how do we make the old seem new..or is that not the solution

hi mr P

did you read my journal yet? how sad huh?

glad you had fun

ok...I think it's clear now...

btw. I'm not going today. I thought about it and realized that I don't owe anyone shit so I'm not going.

that just totally sucks!!!
well, at least you have tomorrow off

Damn you KHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN!!! I mean...WOOOOOOOOOORRRK!!!

I've been "hiding" in Chicago. Went on a sort of spiritual-find-myself-flying-roadtrip kind of thing. I'll explain more when I update.

Glad you're enjoying your bankrupcy, bud.

yea crashing cars is no fun. my car is probably totalled. it was running but over heated not far from where i crashed it. so it is leaking lots of vital fluids. it doesn't really matter because i am ok.

oh shit! I spoke to you last night and totally forgot to mention Thursday. I saw Terry again. At first it was wierd but after like 5 minutes it was back to the way it used to be. I guess there's hope after all.

last night I fell asleep...I woke up at 4 am and I was like shit! I think i missed his call!

hey you! I just wanted to tell ya...

I love new phones! I was thrilled when I got mine, but now I want to throw it 'cause people call me on it.

So, you're an editor, huh? Of what kind of publication? Any insight you have to offer would be most appreciated.

hi. yes, sorry i haven't been paying attention to you lately! today continued to get worse, believe it or not. i had to play for 4 hours tonight and it hurt like a sonofabitch. luckily i was smart enough to recruit people to keep my ice bag filled the whole time, so every single second i wasn't using my left hand, i was icing it. still hurts like crap though, and it very swollen. tomorrow i have to play from 830-230. arghhhh. the hard part is actually trying to play without using my left thumb. it's tricky enough when i know the music, but tonight i did a lot of sightreading.

what tops off the whole day? i forgot to tape E.R.!!!

I think you should keep yer day job...AND keep writing. No sense being a writer if you can't buy a pencil damnit!
Love and hate are different sides of the same coin. They both involve passion and one can often come from the other.
It's cliche because it holds basically true. That's why things become cliches....otherwise they wouldn't be as useful like...putting sprinkles at the bottom of the ice cream cone. I mean you still get the sprinkles but it isn't the same.
Writing, unless you are lucky or doing free form, involves a lot of carving. What you want is there, you just have to take away everything that isn't your book.
Good luck.
Take care mon friar.

I learned that hate does stem from love. The most hate-filled people are the ones that have been hurt the most.

keep up on the writing for sure. see where it goes and how far you can take it. You never know till you try.

I'll call you today.
I worked yesterday and I forgot you worked too! but today we shall talk and talk and talk ...

kind of like a forensics show on discovery but with an autopsy instead....reallly cool. hope youre doin better adios

Glad things are lookin a little brighter. Sucks about the cell phone though. I have a cell phone that I only use to store numbers so I know how that is.
And kids are awsome....when you can return them to their parents. Get em all hyped up and bouncing off the walls...then hand them back.

thanks for the birthday love.

3 months isn't a very long time.
i bet you could put it to good use.
necessity IS the mother of invention, afterall.

my prescription for a little mood booster:
do something really nice for your sister to let her know how much you appreciate her opening her home to you. tell her how much it means to you and all sorts of gratitude stuff. maybe you guys will have a nice super lovey moment. and then everyone walks away with a smile.

remember: it's up to YOU to make your life happy.. or not.

Dude, you could never lose cool points! I am sorry, though, that things all are shitty. I know it's easy for me to say...well, actually, it's not because I feel the same way you do about where I'm living now, too, so I'm going to say it. It's somewhere to live for the time being. It's better than being on the street and also, it's really better than living with your landlady. It may not be your stuff, but at least she is out of your hair. And furthermore, young man, you're still cool in my book, even if you don't like cheese.

Chin up, buttercup! It's fall! It's Halloween! You know what that means, right? Free candy!

yes but as far as you know, i did it the legit way. that's my point. my very very non french point.

i hate having roomates....always problems.....but im sure u can work it.......good luck......